Stres?
Nah, not really..
I'm just a little confused with myself..
Cita2 hampir terlupakan dg begitu byknya godaan uang dan cobaan..
Masa depan masih belum jelas,,
Aku masih belum punya ruang untuk berpijak..
Stuck between lust and dream and reality and hope,,
I HATE HOPE
Harapan selalu membuatku kecewa
Seringkali apa yg kuharapkan tidak terjadi
Yet, when I least expected, everything went well..
Makes me curious and wondering if God only look at me as a toy
But then again, it's not like I'm having any big problems in my life..
In fact, I'm so blessed with so many things in my life..
I have a family that loves me so much, they're so eager for me coming back to Jakarta
I have friends who adores me much, they never forget about me..
I'm also blessed with relatives who are kindly accepting me in this house for 10 years..
Yet, I feel so insecure..
So fragile..
So bored..
Too many hesitation..
I always envy those who had high determination..
They always reach the top of their lifes..
